My Birthday

Today is my birthday.

But unlike most people who are having parties and blogging about them, i am not doing so, as i still strongly believe that it is kinda retarded to blog about daily life.

we shouldnt be celebrating our birthday.
The person who is entitled to celebrate this special day should be our parents.

It is this particular day where my mum had to go into the hospital and suffer one whole day just to force me out. So kudos to her. then, why am i celebrating this day as if its a victory day for myself?

It is also a day whereby my dad is proud to be a father of 2. it just meant more responsibilities for him to carry, more burden for him to worry about, and of course, more money he have to set aside for us instead of his personal enjoyment. So why do i celebrate the day whereby i have to be a parasite for about 20 odd years before i can take care of them??

It is a day for celebration, also for my grandparents.
For i am their first grandson that bore the family name.
From my chinese name, i know that they all have high expectations of me, which i didnt acheive.

It is a day where my elder sister have to share the 100% attention she had from my parents with me. but instead of all that, she even gave me love, from inside her. this meant my presence had made her to share her things with me.

So this day, should be meant for them. For all of them to celebrate that they have been thru so much for bringing up the troublesome me. For all of them to celebrate the fact that i am nearer to independence. For all of them to celebrate my acheivements that made them proud. A day for all of them.

Not me.

Gratitude

Im too proud to say sorry, too thick to say thank you.
But deep in me, i know i have to say so to all of you.
So i shall name out people who touched my life in this wonderful year of 2009 and during my poly years

They are all in random order, and all are important.


THE POLY
I have always been troublesome in poly, and i can tell u guys, without u, i think i will be in deep trouble and not become wat i am now.



Amir
since year 1, i have been always asking for your help. and you have always lend me your support, be it in homework or in personal life. im very grateful for all your guidance and is very sorry to be your burden at certain part of poly, whereby there are many problem caused because of my impulsiveness and rashness.

Dee
you are special to me, dear. it is u hu always encourage me that i am able to do my best during all my tests. it is your love and concerns that make me know that im loved, im still being cared by someone. and it is your words throughout my poly life that helped me thru all the difficulties and conflict with fellow classmates.

Donq
bro, u tutored me when i was knowing nothing, u helped me with hardware stuffs when all i could manage is to burn my hand with the soldering machine. you helped me pull thru exams, and even help me print notes and exam papers. if not for you, i would not have the kickstart in poly, as i was too relaxed to take anything seriously. but with you around, u guided me thru. your presence in my poly life had helped me so much that i dont even know how to thank you.

Firdaus
Yes, i admit, we both might have some misunderstanding and problems with each other. but the cool guy have always forgive me easily, even though the trouble i created for him is too big for just a sorry. the way he treated me despite me always causing him trouble had made me realised so much of my own weakness and im guilty of it. his patience with me is so limitless. he is willing to take his own personal time to help correct my mistakes and help me thru, rather den just let me be. i had always consider myself as a good leader, but when i see the way he lead us for project works, i find myself so lousy compared to him.

Khine
you are the top student, undisputed. like your name, you are very kind as well. if i ever have a problem, even if its late in the night or if you are outside, u would still pick up my call and help me solve it as soon as possible. for that, i thank you.

Daniel
you showed me the a limitless sky, when i thought i have already reach the limit.
you taught me things that i thought i already know enough of.
you enrich me not only in studies, but also mentally.
you proved the impossibles and even taught me how to do it.
you teach me to be humble, which im too proud to learn.
you taught me to be responsible, and not act like a brat, the hard way.
you protected and help me, when i was down and alone.
you gave me a target to aim, which is to reach the place where u are now
for all these valueable lessons, i give you my respect and a big thank you.
and my apology for everything, that i have done wrong, and you have forgiven, despite me not apologising.

CHEONG SIWEI
u bring joy and laughter to all of us. you helped everyone when there is a need for you to strike. your road to distinction had benefitted many, including me. but wat u have help me, is more den that. you talked with me, you taught me when to not comment and when to make noise. you are always there to listen to my rubbish, and constantly helped me pass the boring lecture hours. u are the reason that make me look forward to sch( okie, this sounded gay ) there are so many little things that u helped me with, which i could never finish naming every one of it. you will never be pissed with me, even though u tried your best to sound pissed. thank you.

Joel
my initial impression of him is very ambitious, which later turned arrogant after a few sems of excellent results. but it later changed, which i guessed it happened when we landed up as roommates and partner in china oitp. you always sound arrogant, but deep inside u, u are humble and is willing to help anyone who approaches u. u would always have the answer, and u are nvr too selfish to share it with anyone. despite both of us born in the same year, u showed me that age doesnt matter, and wat really do matter is the mindset and will of a person.

Diana
My hime-sama. thats wat i called u in china, and it meant my princess. you are a good class rep and helped us with a lot of cca points. but in china, you are a damn spoilt brat, one that is so bad that even a brat like myself cant take it. but as people changes, you do change, and for the better. but i do thank you for the fact that you let me see myself in u, and know how irritating i can be at times. and from your changes, it motivate me to change myself more and to be a better man.

Lim hock kiat
im sorry for bullying you, but i find it fun, and i know u wont take it to heart. you are a weird person. no one knows why and what you are doing. when you are happy, u would do your best easily. but when you are not, u would definitely do a lousy job, or worst still, dont do. i agree that i dont quite like that attitude of yours, but nonetheless, i thank you for your help in some subjects that is so profound that only u, the king of lab is able to do.


Last but never the least,
my 2 fyp hommies

Yes, we do quarrel, yes, we do fight. but i know that you guys are always giving in to my way. thank you for being so patient with me and assisting me in almost every other things during our final year. thank you for the effort of sticking with such a difficult person like me till the very end. and of coz, thank you for all the fun u guys have brought to our boring fyp lab.

Kenny
you always say i talk cock. you always wanted to correct me, but somehow u gave up, which instead, made me realise how cock am i. you helped me cover up work that i cant finish, and do stuffs that is supposed to be my share of work. u helped the sick me oversee everything so that nothing goes wrong. i admire your responsibility and preservarance.

Wei Xian
value added guy, that is wat i called u. and true enough, i really wrote about value addedness in a person for my ntu admission essay, which i refer to u. you let me know that study is not everything. you showed me a world that i never knew exist. i always thought im better than u. but looking at acheivements, i noticed, all that i am better than u is academic. nothing else. but all the advantages that u have over me is so overwhelming that i find it hard to believe. and that is wat i call value added. u dont have to be excellent in one particular thing, if u are good in many other things. this is called all-rounder. and i believe, you are one tough all rounder. i will acheive wat u achieve, i will work so hard that one day, i can confidently tell u that, i am indeed better than you. i thank you for letting me realise it is not one thing that will make u successful, but all other little things that will bring you to the higher level.


Alright. thats all for tonight.
i shall thank a few other different people tml or some other time.

Climate Change

Okie, since the copenhagen talk is on the way. i shall blog a bit about how we can help to improve the climate changes with our strength.

CUT DOWN ON ELECTRICITY USAGE BY
-off appliances that you do not use.
-off all switches that is on standby.
-use energy saving lightbulbs.
-WATCH LESS TV AND USE LESS COMPUTER

RECYCLE
-plastic water bottles
-used papers
-plastic bags
-soft drinks cans
-newspaper
-old cardboxes

USE LESS OF
-styrofoam products
-plastic bags ( use recycle bags)
-paper (dont anyhow print things )
-plastic boxes

DO
-plant more trees
-litter less
-less dumping in the sea
-take more public transport when travelling


though its seemed mediocre to do these ourselves, if a lot of people do these together, it is gonna do the earth good. it is just like the case of if everyone in china gives me 10cents, i will become a millionair.

the talks at copenhagen is about cutting down carbon emmision. but this is not enough. the government should also do something more to cut down on pollution. they should make sure that government body themselves set an example by using energy saving bulbs themselves first, cut down on air conditioning in all government bodies, and require all food courts inside their complexs to not use styrofoam products.

My army camp for example, even if we are dining inside the canteen, they provide us with styrofoam cups, plates, and disposable utensils. i find that this is totally not environmental friendly.

Another issue is with public transport.
if the government wants us to cut down our personal carbon footprints, please do make public transport cheaper instead of keep increasing the price of it. if that is the case, people would feel more encouraged to take public transport than personal transport.

IF the government dont do wat they preach, how do the people be convinced that there is an urgency to save mother earth?

All people think of is profits, money and success. but if the world continue to fail, even with state of art technology, even with all the money in the world, we could not reverse the harm that is done.

So i plead with the world.
Do however little u could to save the earth. even if it seemed so little to be noticable, you will still help.

RelationshiT

Recently, while i was blogging about the bus fare thingy, i came across this very cool picture that made me wanna blog about this particular too.

According to a lot of reports, there are more women than male on earth, and it also applies to the case of singapore.

BUT WHY THE FUCK AM I SINGLE?
Bah.

There is this guy that wrote to askmen.com and ask for advice that why he always scare the girl away when he starts to try and kiss them. Well, i guess, if u do this in singapore, this is a sure-fail here.
The advisor replied saying that it might be because he is ugly, or maybe his kissing approach is wrong.
And he also said that he is not brave and confident enough.
i was thinking, WTF.. daringly kiss the girl on first date still not brave enough?
i dont even dare to approach a random girl, let alone date her.

My reason of why am i single?
it is as the picture have suggested.
I have been in poly, and people are telling me poly is full of pretty girls who dress up for lessons. But damn, im in engineering school, which make it a almost all guys school. AND, as im quite against elder sister relationship, my choices even landslided more.

LAst but not least, im now in army. which made me all the more walking alone in the damn desert. luckily, i got to know this cute girl, which made my desert more bearable. but that doesnt really help. its only a short period of time for me to know her, and i got no way of contacting her. so i guess, she is just a random person which would not leave any memory inside my head after 20years. and that would have not been the case if i have more courage.

according to wiki, masturbating makes u more confident of yourselves...
what is your say, people?

She's Your Friend, NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND

okie, i came across this super cool article that made me got nothing to say.

maybe i shouldnt make 2 friends end up together.

so here it goes.
http://www.askmen.com/dating/heidi_300/365_why-shes-your-friend-not-your-girlfriend.html
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So, you're getting to that stage in your life when all of your guy friends gradually start to partner up, pop the question and enter a life of ball-and-chain bliss. As much as you may make fun of them, it's hard to ignore the sting that often comes from being the only one in your group of friends who's alone. This might lead you to think that your longtime female friend represents an intriguing solution to your loneliness -- but considering her as possible girlfriend/wife material is all sorts of wrong. You need to discover why this could be the worst idea you’ve ever had. Understand, we’re referring to the friend you see and talk to often, not the chick from college you run into after years of not speaking; she is definitely an option.

You know each other too well
You know that exciting first stage of dating when every fact a girl shares about herself seems like a clue to the overall mystery that is her -- and you're like a modern-day Indiana Jones? This stage doesn't last forever, nor is it the most crucial element in a relationship, but that doesn't mean it's not important in its own right. In an age where all our personal information is splattered all over Facebook, Twitter and whatever other social network is in vogue, mystery is highly underrated. In fact, it's been proven that a lack of mystery creates problems for men in the beginning of relationships, much more than for women. Do you think there's going to be much mystery to the chick who vomited all over your shoes one drunken night or told you all about her first pregnancy scare? Probably not.

There’s no honeymoon phase
When you first start dating someone, you’re either playing games or trying to impress her. That intoxicating feeling that causes girls to dress up in their best outfits and causes you to pretend to like the same movies she does is a quintessential first step of most relationships. Somewhere in the midst of those little white lies, you learn an appreciation and tolerance for things that you would never enjoy in the company of a friend. You’re skipping right past this phase if you start dating a long-time friend by heading straight into the comfort zone -- a land of sweatpant Fridays and snippy comments about each other’s interests. Do not pass “Go” and do not collect $200.


Awkward sex
If you’ve never thought about your friend in "that way" before, chances are the base physical attraction simply isn't there. And if it was never there before, you’ll find yourself forcing it to fit your newfound goal of making this girl your serious girlfriend -- which is bound to lead to some horribly awkward physical encounters. Your head might want to turn your friendship into something more -- but it doesn’t mean that your penis is going to agree with you.

The potential for settling
The question of “am I settling?” comes into play in almost every serious relationship at one point or another. Most times you have to ignore it and realize it’s just a product of the “grass is always greener on the other side” human condition. But when you’re taking a longstanding friendship and hurtling it full-steam ahead into a relationship, the question of whether you just settled with the nearest and easiest possible option for a girlfriend is entirely valid and a tough doubt to deal with.

The end of your friendship
Whether your attempt at turning your platonic gal pal into a serious girlfriend lasts for a week or a year, the friendship you once had with her is over. Period. There’s no going back. You might lay down the ground rules before you enter into this experiment and swear that you’ll remain friends no matter what happens, but that’s just one of those comforting lies we tell ourselves -- like Santa Claus and soul mates. A healthy, platonic relationship with a member of the opposite sex is a rare thing -- and it will rapidly become extinct in your life if you choose to cross that line.

she's your friend, keep it that way
If you've managed to keep a healthy relationship with a female friend for a good amount of time, there's a reason why you aren't a couple. She might be fun and great to talk to, but chances are she's only becoming an option now because of the current state of your relationship affairs. Forcing a friendship into something more is usually doomed to fail and worse, destined to ruin the previous bond you had. Females outnumber males in the world -- focus your sights on any one of the thousands you haven't met yet, and away from the one chick who knows you bawled like a baby every time your beloved sports team didn’t win the championship. That one’s for the vault, buddy.

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i claim no credit to these advices and comments. but i find it cool to let people know =]]

today i...

today i went to army, do this and that,
come home, play basketball, play facebook and bla blA bla..

Z... its so retarded to blog about daily life..
maybe your life have something interesting happening. but that doesnt really concern anyone. so why post it online for all to see? just write a diary or something.. but people tell me its more convienent to write it via a comp, and so i suggested they use the cool software called the mircosoft words.
Like that, you can keep your privacy to yourself.
Then, people will tell me, if you dont like it, DONT READ IT.
Well, you post, i read, then i comment about your LIFE. Thats the fun part about blogging

But now, the real problem is, when i comment, your not happy, and people start flaming each other again. If you dont want people to give you negative comments, keep the damn story to yourself, else remove the comment section. if there is a way for people to reply to your story, be prepared to face all sorts of comments.

Why post something and only want the positive comment and fuck the negative ones? ITS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR!!!

so my conclusion is, those retards that blog about daily life or post shit status in facebook are just trying to get attention. but whatever the attention is, just deal with it and not fuck those that gives you negative ones... cause it just make you look so fucking retarded to flame.

Last but not least, if you think by crying and throwing tantrums will get people to care and concern about you, you are just a kid who only thinks that the whole world owes you one.

DISCLAIMERR
THIS POST IS NOT PARTICULAR CREATED FOR ANYONE.
JUST NEED TO LET OUT MY FLARES. I DOUBT PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND WTF I TYPING. SO JUST READ AND BE ENTERTAINED WITH MY SHIT PHRASING AND BROKEN ENGLISH =]]

Petition against high transportation fee for poly students

Recently when i was clearing up my facebook, i noticed that i joined a facebook group by the name of petition against high transportation fee for poly students.

i went in to read on what the people in the group have to say about the issue. Instead,i saw a group of people flaming a poor guy, cursing him and his entire family. it is so typical of singapore youngster to do that and im actually guilty of it during gaming -.-
but what i have to say is that, arguing over the internet is like running a special olympic, even if you win, you are still retarded =x

okie, back to the topic, as i was one of their member, im supposed to support the cause. However, maybe its because im no longer affected, i find it retarded to support the cause.

the poly students compared themselves to the JC and ITE students.
Some people say that coz ur dumb and u cant get into jc, you are whining here about the expensive bus fares. but the poly students rebutted that they CHOSE to go poly.
So here is my response:
if u CHOSE to go poly, deal with the rising bus fares yourselves.
and as the examples stated above, jc and ite students are wearing UNIFORMS. Poly students do not need to wear them. so as students who are NOT wearing uniforms, we are treated as young adults. so quit whining about the ADULT PRICE you are paying for your transport.

if poly students are given the benefit of student transport fees, the universities would also be asking for such priviledge too. Soon, even the NSF would want such cheaper bus fares.

If thats the case, basically everyone other than people working would all have 45cents travel fees. So how SBS earn moneY?

people who started this petition are people who only think of their self interest.
they did not think of the complications it would bring about. Poly is the eqivilent of university in some countries and i therefore think it is fair to be charged for adult fare. you guys want people to treat you like young adult, yet you still want advantages of students in uniform. i think it is only fair that unless poly students agree to uniforms, then the bus fare should be of student price. IF NOT, if u give poly student the 45cent priviledge, you should give university student such priviledge too =]

1 year later and on..

LOL...
I didnt realise that i did not delete my blog.
but okie, i shall delete all my old posts that are useless and leave those that are useful around.

Why am I back?
Because i have a lot of frustrations and nowhere to vent.
So lets waste some time here and spam some shit around =]

1 year ago, i was still troubled by the fact that im constantly sick, troubled by exams, troubled by fyp. troubled about this particular girl at that moment.

1 year later, all i can say is that im happier.
i finished schooling, and enlisted to army.
i did well for my fyp and gotten a decent gpa.
i am able to enter a nice uni, but have to wait 2 years.
i finally went to learn my first aid and cpr and aed
i gotten my driving license in first try =D
best and last of all, my illness had became better =]

but one thing about 1 year ago and 1 year later is
im still lonely and bored during cold nights.
im still only able to dream about the girl i like and nothing else.

thats all for today.
maybe if i got nice inspiration, i might write something for christmas