有缘无份

Tonight Simin also will be going to US for 6months.

That would just mean i will be more and more lonely.

And when your lonely, you tend to think a lot of stuffs, and that leads me to this blog article.

I once asked this good friend of mine, why do he break up with the girlfriend that he loves so much. I even go to the extend of blaming him of breaking the poor girl heart. However, when after everything is blown over, he once told me that he still loves her when they broke up, and the reason for breaking up is pathetic, yet unpreventable. And thus, it led me of thinking that they are fated to NOT be together.

And that reminds me of a girl that fate brought us together, and also broke us apart.

Im sorry for everything i have done. i think i have said that more than what she wanna hear. We didnt break up, we just eventually didnt manage to become an item. Promises are broken, making me never to promise again. That incident made me lose quite an amount of confidence in both myself and in love itself.

now that i get to know this sassy girl who only gives me a choice of friend, fling or nothing. i might be nothing to her, but ger oh ger, ur the one that bring me smiles when i felt like killing myself. you are considerate girl, as i know im kind of irritating at times when i sms u. if it were some other gers, they would have never replied me at ALL. u are very confident, while im only so when im not facing u. i have a bad emotional barrier in me. i dont wanna me a friend, nor a fling and never a nothing. do i have some other choiceS? i ponder.

OK!

TIME TO END THESE BLA BLA BLA...

im not thinking straight tonight.

emoness, fatigue and heat makes my brain burns

yea ger, i still have it, but i have hidden it, as im too ashamed ever since it happened.

i tried to make it as if i lost it, but i can never forget where i left it, even after so many years.

ahah... maybe coz its my first brush with love =]