faith in humanity

I used to believe that there are things done is for the good of others, and if you are able to help, you would feel good when you help people. 

Used to.

My life changed when i got into working part time, and my experiences in polytechnic

i was inspired to go for lifeguard course because one of my friend got it. 

i hoped to be a lifeguard so that i could help people, as i used to be a weak swimmer myself.

However, as i entered the wild wild wet, i realised that people there are not to help. some work for the money, some work for the fact that they get to see girls, some work for the authority and power bestowed to them.

as i applied to join OCIP2007 in sp, i thought it would be great to meet a group of kind hearted people who want to go help out the overseas underpriviledged committee. i was again proven very wrong. as OCIP allows eee students to clear it as their industrial training program, many year 2 applied for it in hope of a relaxed attachment plus fun time being overseas. this program also guarantees a A in ITP. 

i lost faith in humanity.

i started to believe that everything one do is for the benefits that it comes with.

in uni, i applied for WSC OVE. i haven had a chance to really know them.

this project is voluntarily. it doesnt give incentive. so i really hope to know some real people. but then again, theres portfolio building.

then, i get to know a girl.

she volunteers with wsc. 

i first thought she was one of those that wanted portfolio building again.

i was wrong.

"i dont want anything i do to be some sort of bonus, it would be sad like that."

im awaken. i already forgotten the real meaning of giving. 

it is to ask for no return. 

it is to be only accountable to yourself.

that was the reason why i took lifeguarding. to guard.

that was the reason i had standard first aid and aed+cpr. to save.

that was the reason i wanted to do community service. to help.

and because i can.