i met u first.
but that does not give me an advantage over him.

seeing u hurt and sad over him, i cannot but wonder if we were instead together, what would happen.

will i hurt you,
will i make you sad.
will i leave u alone, when what you wanted is me so bad.
will i be nice and sweet, like how everyone is when it first begin.
or will i be a changed person when time goes by, just like him.
will i make empty promises that i know i cant keep.

but then again, i was not chosen.
how can i be better?

maybe im more of a jerk than he really is.
maybe because im not him, that i say its entireely his fault.

i only blame myself when i see u hurt
i blame myself for not being better.
i blame myself for not trying hard.
i blame myself for having the headstart and still lose out.
i blame myself for not being able to convince you that im the one.

and all i can do when i see you getting hurt by him, is to blame myself for not being the better man.

the demon is out.
i feel so much better now.

my recent life in 1 minute

Ys finally finished poly.. together with edna...
ahahah.. i finishing armyy lohhhh


Was promoted!! though its nothing much, and its a supposed rank for all ord-ing personal, its a hard fought journey for me.




i ran sundown on 28th May... though its 10km, its not as easy as i think, and its definitely more fun than i thought!!!!
okay, next one 21km!!


I bought iphone 4 white loh!! but can only use it full time after june 21. so for now its a iipod touch!!
and angry jiao to go with it =DD


just got 2 wisdom teeth out... and look at my swollen face!!!