Year 1 Sem 1 has ended, and i kind of regret doing several stupid stuffs throughout this short period of time. Though it was a fun and enriching experience, and i have been able to experience many of my first time, there are still things that cock up and would be always there in me for life.
As always, im lost again in the game of love, and had sort of changed target in a short span of time. This would have been a deadly move as anyone you know would have deemed you a flirt and poof, game over fer you. But really, i didnt realise somethings until it had happened. She is just so sweet, so kind, and so nice, and that i have accidentally fallen for her.
But, im not taken seriously like always. The speed of change is too fast. I screwed up. I should have waited, and impulsiveness have been proven lethal once again. Well, there are things that not everyone know. Would you waste time writing a useless program just for the girl you like? Would you be taking note of exactly what type of guys she like just to work towards someone she might double take? Would you of all, treat her like a princess and constantly feed her? But yea, that doesnt mean she would and must like me back.
Life is unfair. 我一直认为只要有毅力和耐力，我始终会追到她。但当我到终点时，我才发现，她以经远走高飞了。
However hard i try, i will never build an impression of the awesome guy she would like in her.
Another big regret is the super time wasting lifesaving course. Though i got recerified, i just realised that i couldnt commit my weekends like how i did during poly years mainly because of all those heavy commitments with hall and faculty. Thus, if my results were to suffer, the biggest culprit would definitely be this stupid CCA which takes 4 out of 5 days a week.
The negligence of faculty mates are also a problem. We used to be so close when the term just started. However, im losing them as time goes by as i could not catch up with all their activities due to my heavy schedules. if i were to choose again, i will not neglect them as much as i do now.
Hall life is awesome. i love it. now, can i still stay on after next sem?
i can only work hard.
but well, even if i couldnt, these experience will live in me forever.
Oh, and this post is supposed to be written to remind me in written form that, even if she continues to treat me nicely, it doesnt mean i still have a chance. it just meant she is nice to everyone, and ur just an everyone to her. Not the special one.
I.need.to.give.up.before.irritating.her.
拜托你不要给我答案，我没有问你，所以你不可以拒绝我。请你让我
那些年，我们一起追的女孩
我喜欢你，糊涂笨拙的样子
我喜欢你，面带笑容的可爱
我喜欢你，对所有人的关怀
我喜欢你，尽心尽力的努力
我喜欢你 ，不做作的性格
我喜欢你， 不高不矮不瘦不胖的身材
我喜欢你，明明就是一位不起眼的女孩，但却让我深深着了迷的莊亦玲
But yea, its over now. Im over.
Im but just a flashing lighning in her life.
Though i do lite up her life with sparks for a while.
I brought along a long and cold thunderstorm in the process.
