her.

you are never special.
at least i never meant to make u special in any sense when i first met you.
but oh boy, you're really a fireworks. from the first time i meet you, i have never experience such excitement and joy in me before. its a mix of being afraid to scare you off, yet trying very hard to be keep you smiling. i admit, i would have given you the feeling that i tried too hard.

but i really do like you.

you wanted to only be friends. i will comply. but lady, give me some time. dont write me off yet. i may be down, but im not yet out. i may be weak, but that doesnt make me love you less. so, dont think that asking me to stop, i can just treat it as i have never liked you. i get infatuated easily, but i dont fall easily.

as much as i hope u will read this, but im sure you wouldnt.
so this shall be here, for no one to read.
for someone who care.
but never reach the one i meant.