tried too hard again

im trying to care.. but i ended up nagging...
im trying to love.. but i ended up hurting...
im trying to improve.. but whatever i improved was not significant to you.

i think i just tried too hard again.
-EvErywh3r3

flaring again

i have not been blogging since school kicked in in full swing..
fml.


but i guess i need to find some time to start flaring on all the shits in school one day.

but not today.

LOL...

okay.
just wanna remind myself that im gonna fail FYP again...
cecz0000 is an impossible module for me..

her.

you are never special.
at least i never meant to make u special in any sense when i first met you.
but oh boy, you're really a fireworks. from the first time i meet you, i have never experience such excitement and joy in me before. its a mix of being afraid to scare you off, yet trying very hard to be keep you smiling. i admit, i would have given you the feeling that i tried too hard.

but i really do like you.

you wanted to only be friends. i will comply. but lady, give me some time. dont write me off yet. i may be down, but im not yet out. i may be weak, but that doesnt make me love you less. so, dont think that asking me to stop, i can just treat it as i have never liked you. i get infatuated easily, but i dont fall easily.

as much as i hope u will read this, but im sure you wouldnt.
so this shall be here, for no one to read.
for someone who care.
but never reach the one i meant.

QET sample paper

Either
1. Forming strong friendships is one of the most important aspects of life as a
student.Write about the benefits of having good friends.
Or
2. A recent survey has shown that people are most afraid of heights and public
speaking.Besides these two fears, what makes you afraid and why?

i choose 2.

Besides this two fear, i guess my greatest fear is the fear of dark places.

In a pitch dark place, you would not be able to see what is around you, nor know what is out there. It could be full of surprises, and it could be full of shock.
Human have the tendancy of being afraid of things that they cannot see, as they would not know what is it they are doing. And when visibility is at its lowest, one of our most important sense rendered useless, all we can do is to feel.

Being a blessed child with no damages to my five senses, i am very afraid of dark places for many reasons. i am too used to seeing things around me and when i am unable to tell what i am doing with my sense of sight, i would start panicking. i would usually bump into things, which in turn injure myself, or spoil the things unintentionally. this has happened to me several times in life, as dark places, like high grounds, is unavoidable. Also, in dark places, you could feel severe discomfort as you would not know what is around you. Are they people who will be helping you, or are they out there to harm you.

Dark places, on the other hand can be mysterious and fun. however, thus far, all my experiences with dark places only end up in fear and panic.

reflection of how im hweeeling

i promised not to go into that situation again.
i promised to be a better person.
i promised myself, that i, will do better than the me in the past.

but somehow, i made the same mistake.
again and again and again.

wtf am i thinking and doing?

i need to concentrate!!!

okay... gonna have fun tml =DD

need to dig out my "say no to emo" liaoz..

and worst of all, bad thing doesnt happen alone..

no hall camp, entered a old hall =[[[

Forge of Olympus!

the day before camp, i was still so worried that i couldnt blend in well..

at the last day of camp, i super cant bear to leave them!!

guess that wat camping is all about =D

and yea, i have an awesome sp, though i really didnt talk much to her on my first meeting...

Go Triton Go You Go You Go!!

mt ophir @ 9/7/11

went ophir with my mum and her aunties groupie.
though the durian is quite good, and the waterfall is refreshing, its still a chore to go out with mummy.

anyway, here are some of the more pretty shots that i would wish to put it here =D